so many things happened its crazy to think about i have changed so much throughout this year and i did a lot of crazy fun amazing things, but i honestly dont even feel like writing about anything good that happened last year because now my world is completely changed. in 2010 my best friend, my everything, my sister she gave up. shes dead, shes gone and there is absolutely nothing i can do about it even though all i think about is changing that one moment in time. i dont blame her at all for giving up she had a really hard life and it makes me so sad to think about all the shit she went through. she was the strongest most beautiful person ive known, and it sucks but her death is partly what made everyone realize that. i knew before that she was different, better, brighter than most people. she just had so much shit going on that covered up her greatness so only the people who really knew her could see. but now, now everybody knows and no one will ever forget. so this year in my stupid little new years blog all i want to express is how much i love my sister britnie, and the fun crazy memories i got to share with her!
we went to gay pride together. i loved it so much just seeing how happy she was and completely satisfied with being gay. when we marched in the dyke march she just pranced around and smiled loving every minute of it. and the best part was the night we went to the gay club! brit's the best dancer!! i loved every minute of it.
going to the cabin, getting drunk and brit being the biggest hardass. she tried to light a match in her mouth for some reason, thats where the big ol chin sore came from ha. then she punched out some windows of a cabin there was blood everywhere but she was fine. she thought she was so cool, and she was. eventhough we got in trouble for that evening, i dont care it was grand.
my 'going away party' funny shit.
when jaxon and brit had a competition to see who could win melody and britnie totally won :)
just all the crazy fun days and nights at kristy jane the beginning the middle and the end.
sort of camping in the gully with the weird homeless boy with the weiner dog.
sleeping over at jaydes eating kettlecorn and giant bowls of cereal! sitting outside on the porch everyone sleeping on the floor eventhough jaydes beds real nice.
i have so so many great memories with my sis! especially in 2010. she helped me so much this last year stood by me and supported me through a lot of hard things. she was always there for me whenever i needed her. we became even better friends this year and spent so much time with eachother, i love her so much! i cant believe i dont get to make more memories with her that 2010 is the last year i get to spend with her. we had so many plans so many things that we didnt get to do. i cant imagine life without her, not having her there for all the important things in life. she will be there though, but its obviously not the same. lifes going to be hard from now on but i will live for her, and be the best that i can be. i miss her so much already. i truely cant believe that shes gone.
2010. the best and worst year of my life. i love you brit :)
burt ya lurp.